I Lava My Twinsie, Chiva Loca

I freakin LAVA my twin sister.  Without going all sappy mushy on her I just have to say that I'm pretty lucky to have met such a fantastic person, I mean she really puts up with a lot of crap from me.  

We have insane adventures on a daily basis, and they usually consist of her being super smart and me having to kill something.  I hope everyone has a good friend like Chiva around. If you don't, find new friends- everyone should laugh as much as we do!

Seriously, this lady even gets on the ground when she thinks something is funny just to be certain that her ROFL is legit.  Need I say more?

I Lava Fake Bands.

In 2006 Aurora and I decided that life is pain and we started an emo band. 

Mind you, neither of us did any actual band-things to make this happen, like you know, write music or perform it or even really talk about it.  But we had a Livejournal for our band and that's all we needed.  

Enjoy.

Band Bio:  The Brandy Situation

we're a girl emo group from fresnoxcalifornia.

we believe the definition of emo has gotten
wildly out of control.

Emo is swoopy, but must also be mopey
Emo is broken hearts on wrists
Emo is tragic, but with an orange county flair
"Mom took my H2, and I can't get to the
straight edge show where I would spend the
whole time adjusting my hair and contemplating
all of the people who will never love me."
Emo is...
water bottles
cats with patches of random color on them
the sun when half a cottonball cloud covers it
my dad when he's jogging
and
buttons!

We're here to reclaim emo. In an asshole sort of way.

Don't make us slit our wrists.

Tour Photo

Lyrics: 


These are for drinking brandy to.

A Song for Doug
(Armijo 2006) a red beard and a backwards baseball cap my soul says you dont know emo but my body says you need to know me can you weather the storm of my emotions? can you show me the ways of the meathead? meat. head. meet. my motherfuckin  head.

*** 

SweetEnlow This morning I woke up and put my blue sweater on I grabbed my ipod and crashed my car The heart on my wrist is cracked in half but when i find the one i'll fill it in. Can you fill my heart Can you fill my heart Can you fill my heart? Tonight tonight tonight Music is crashing I buy a 151 and coke Because it helps me to dance The heart on my wrist is cracked in half but when i find the one i'll fill it in. Can you fill my heart Can you fill my heart Can you fill my heart?           (schoelen/2006)

***
Morning After
(armijo/schoelen 2006)

I stayed up all night
With intricate plans for us
How could you let me die inside?
How could youlet me die?
How could you leave me to fall apart?
I may never know
I couldn't move when the alarm clock rang
The sound was needles in my veins
how could you let me die inside
how could you let me die
how could you leave me to fall apart
Please let me know.
*bridge*
I'm stuck here on my windowsill
Throwing straightedge to the wind
How could this be happening
It's happening again

how could you let me die inside
how could you let me die
how could you leave me to fall apart
I don't want to know

***
Titles are overrated
(armijo 2006)

my soul, it aches.
like a beatle bug turned over,
no way to turn my incandescent shell.
the ache, the burn.
great love of blackest night
all I know is your sleepy caress
so easily twisting from my heart
and moving to the world.

***
A Night at Livingstones
(armijo/schoelen 2006)

Bleak
My friday spilled out like a rainy day in
seattle
He didn't leave me his key
he didn't leave me his key
something red.
red and mysterious, like my soul
Is not meant to be trampled on
He didn't leave me his key
He didn't leave me his key
I fought through the lines
And Collapsed at the entrance
He didn't leave me his key
So what's left for me?

***

Ode to Scott Strapp

We found ourselves
drinking cheap vodka from a plastic bottle
depression or date rape
its all the same with him
scott, I said, strapp me.
strapp my soul, scott.

Schoelen/Armijo 2006


***

Emo Eyes

I knew you were different,
Short of complex
Your brows always arch
In surprised reflex.
There was no depth
So i pumped you with lies
Because I wish that you had
Emo Eyes

Schoelen/Armijo 2006

***

Anne Shirley Eat Yr Heart Out

(Armijo/Schoelen 2006) Don't be afraid to love me Love me like you're gonna lose me Dont be afraid to shoot me you've already murdered my heart If I move too fast Its only because I'm afraid to let this go (oh no) (oh no's lead into xylephone solo, the next two lines are repeated whispering) let my soul be bludgeoned by your cryptic superficial letterings on the bathroom mirror is where they appear Don't let this slip away Don't let it fall apart Don't be afraid to love me Love me like you're gonna lose me (just slow down the tempo and the noise until it peters out...)

I Lava Crafts

Duh.

So I just started a second blog for my craftyventures.

Burlymade.

Check it, yo.

I Lava This.

Whatever this is.

the
insecurity- but in a good way
and
sternocleidomastoid (oh how these things are memorable!)
and
trying to focus: ch 1, sc into first 3 sts (2 sc in next stitch, 4 sc) 12 times
but having to scale down to: ch 1 sc across, turn 
because focus is impossible this close
and
grinning til it hurts
then
sitting down and trying to be concise and maybe even sound poetic but realizing i have no clue how to be concise, and omg how much easier would it have been to just say "i lava this whole liking someone so much that i'd consider learning math to impress him thing" and been done with it instead of channeling my 14 year-old-hiding-in- her-closet-and-pining-and-writing self which will probably just seem a little over the top and well... ridiculous.

But I think that is exactly why I LAVA the heck outta this.

Whatever this is.

I Lava Scanning Yarn

My camera broke.  Yeah.

No pictures of my kids, no pictures of myself but even worse... no pictures of my yarn haul I brought home from Sock Summit and TNNA!

TRAGEDY!

Of course, I'm a lady who thrives in the face of adversity so this was just another challenge. Ho-hum.

The stitch really hit the fan when I finished a scarf and didn't have any way of bragging about my stitchwitchery to everyone on facebook.

I turned to my scanner.

Pink Lemonade scarf in Anzula Squishy and Haiku

 The color!  The stitch definition! It's all there!  You can even see the twist of the yarn, which blew my mind!

Naturally I went on a scanning rampage.  Here are a few of my favorites from my Ravelry stash.

Ms. Gusset Sock

Little Red Bicycle Spark Lace in Cthulhu

Little Red Bicycle Penny Farthing Sock in Xanadu

Habu Textiles 20/1 Copper/Bamboo That's right. I said copper, like what your meth-head neighbor steals from streetlights.  Badass yarn.

Skeindalous Superwash Sock Yarn in Pibgorn

 Obsessed much?

I Lava AWOLNATION

Furthermore, I think that Aaron Bruno would love me.

This is straight off of the AWOLNATION instagram.  I'm using it as further evidence that we'd be perfect together.  I don't know how he doesn't know about me and search me out. No Grumpy Pants! Smile as often as possible! This should be a grand romance! Aaron Bruno, can't you hear my spirit calling?

Fangirling out aside, I listen to Megalithic Symphony all the time.  Like, nightly as I fall asleep and when I need to be in a better mood during the mid-afternoon slump, and when I work out. (Which I'll need to do more and more of now- First bout with Atomic Assault is in September!)  I find something new to love every time I listen.  It's so upbeat and easy to dance to.  I wish I was a better dancer so I could choreograph dances to Wake Up (which would be a killer moderny-ballet-y song!  You know what I'm talking about with all of my non-technical terms! Pointed toes and writhing!) and MF (A burlesque dance with too much attitude and the kinda hairflips that would put so much strain on my neck that my chiropractor would be in business for centuries.  Motherfucker are you listening to me?)

 

Basically, that's it.  

I just can't contain it any longer.  So I'm proposing.

Aaron Bruno, you should totally marry me.  After October 2nd.  Because I can't marry you before that without some legal issues.  Unless you're into polyandry.  Which could be fun.  

Anyway, I called it that I'd be in LAVA with you before I even saw your face.  Sail was enough for me.  

Just sayin'.  

I Lava Skating!

New! New! New!

That has been the theme of 2011 and some of the things have hurt but the growth from those things has been amazing and I feel as though I, while still very raw in some spots, have been coming into my own yet again.  Metamorphosis and all of that mumbo jumbo.

Anyway, I hope you get the feeling that I'm leading up to something big.  Because I kind of am.

I've spent the last 3 months deliberating over a choice to change roller derby teams.  This isn't just like changing underwear or even switching from Pepsi to Coke. Making the choice to join a new team in a different league has the potentially devastating consequences of hurting those closest to you, and of course, there's that nagging fear of failure whenever you jump into any new situation.  I hadn't skated much (okay, just once) in the last 8 months with NOtown Roller Derby because things were just so turbulent everywhere else- remember, 2011 brought divorce, moving out, moving back in, a job switch, going from redhead to blonde (okay, not so monumental...) and all kinds of other mopey bullshitbullshitbullshit.  I couldn't really fit in skating as much as I missed it.

In the meanwhile in my new job I've been working alongside a fabulous lady who (aside from being way tanner and smarter than I am, could be my twinsie) just happens to skate on a different team.  Thus the idea was born and I've been gnawing on the gristle of it ever since.

This morning I tried out for CCAD's Atomic Assault and made the team.  I am so excited to be skating alongside these fabulous women who I am eager to get to know! Change is good, it feels cathartic and more than anything I'm just glad to be 100% excited to skate derby again. 

So to my old NOtown comrades- I have a permanent place in my heart for you.  You're strong and beautiful and I wish you all the most amazing bouts, booty blocks and bruises!

And to my new Atomic Assault teammates and everyone in CCAD- Thank you for giving me this opportunity!  I am going to have so much fun with you, let's kick ass!